It seems that I'm not as ready to go back to a cafe night as I thought I was.
I couldn't get there last week because I'd already booked work for Tuesday that prevented me finishing early enough to get there.
I knew that I would finish early enough today, so I did my usual preparatory work last night including epilating my face, shaping my brows and shaving around my hairline.
I finished work early, as expected. I was so convinced that I was going to go that I took off my shoes and socks to allow the sock marks to dissipate shortly after I finished work. Around 4pm, while waiting for my son to finish with the bathroom so that I could straighten my hair and start getting ready, I went onto facebook. Big mistake!
While looking through my news feed, I found a photo that had been posted to encourage people to come along to the cafe night, with a comment of "you never know who will show up". Unfortunately, the photo contained both C and the central person from the sub-group who went out of their way to reject me.
The idea of going to a cafe night and both of them being there was too much for me to cope with. I simply shut down.